the big move
ok this post is probably gonna be a bit long so bear with me..
my church is finally moving out of the marine parade venue we've been worshipping for the past 12 years or so. we're moving to the EXPO!....Max pavillion or something.
tonight was the last service held, and i had bittersweet feelings throughout..kinda like the kind u have when a phase in your life has ended and a new one is beginning...except im not really looking forward to this "new phase" all that much...
well u might wonder why...i mean..ive been coming to FCBC ever since i was a little boy....going to sundae school since like pri 3 ...and now im in uni man...its been a long time. when i first came, the current building wasnt even bought yet, and we were worshipping at temporary premises in the SLF building. i guess those were the halcyon days of youth, where everyone was a friend to everyone else, and i really looked forward to sunday school every week.
how has things changed since then? i guess ive become more....jaded? morose? disillusioned?
just about everyone i know since my childhood church daes has left the church, due to various reasons. migrating, changing church, etc have all taken a toll on my circle of church friends, to the extent that i pretty much dont know anyone now in my church, even though ive been going there for more than a decade and counting.
i used to hate the youth service, and avoided it religiously hahaha...why? cos i felt the jumping around and shouting and fainting and crying and speaking of tongues was too much for me to handle....not that any of that is wrong mind you...its just that i was more used to the adult service. also, i look at all those kids jumping around, looking like they are really really on fire for christ, and i think to myself.....are they there for a fun experience, or a life changing spiritual one...i am not qualified to answer that, and i hope fervently for their sake that its the latter, not the former, that keeps them coming back to church week after week. what i can say though, is this.....where is my generation??!!! where are all the pple i knew when i was a kid coming to church??!! where have they all disappeared to.....
they have gone.
i guess we are at the time of our lives now with so many distractions, and so many past hurts, that it just becomes so easy to give up the faith, to quit the race.....to abandon your heritage and leave the prophisies (sic?) of our lives unfufilled. i know many who have gone through the caudron of the army, and left it with their faith in tatters. i know pple of my age, christians, who are already married with kids...all because of a lapse of judgement and self control. so many pple, those who were so enthusiastic about the faith when they were young...have turned out to be the ones that have backslided in one way or another. thats where my generation has gone, and tts why i hardly know this whole new batch of kids in the youth service.
it is my fervent prayer then, that i will never walk down this road...that even though i am by no means a model christian, or even a good one at that...i need that childlike faith to keep trusting God in everything i do....and lean not on my own understanding.
because the way i see it....if i lose God, im gonna lose myself as well...and i dont think i have what it takes to survive that.
sorry for the rather depressing post, but i had to get it off my chest. haiz.
oh well, i do believe the big move is all for the best, for the Church and for the furtherance of His Kingdom. may FCBC and her members continue to shine on for Jesus, in all circumstances.
Joshua
my church is finally moving out of the marine parade venue we've been worshipping for the past 12 years or so. we're moving to the EXPO!....Max pavillion or something.
tonight was the last service held, and i had bittersweet feelings throughout..kinda like the kind u have when a phase in your life has ended and a new one is beginning...except im not really looking forward to this "new phase" all that much...
well u might wonder why...i mean..ive been coming to FCBC ever since i was a little boy....going to sundae school since like pri 3 ...and now im in uni man...its been a long time. when i first came, the current building wasnt even bought yet, and we were worshipping at temporary premises in the SLF building. i guess those were the halcyon days of youth, where everyone was a friend to everyone else, and i really looked forward to sunday school every week.
how has things changed since then? i guess ive become more....jaded? morose? disillusioned?
just about everyone i know since my childhood church daes has left the church, due to various reasons. migrating, changing church, etc have all taken a toll on my circle of church friends, to the extent that i pretty much dont know anyone now in my church, even though ive been going there for more than a decade and counting.
i used to hate the youth service, and avoided it religiously hahaha...why? cos i felt the jumping around and shouting and fainting and crying and speaking of tongues was too much for me to handle....not that any of that is wrong mind you...its just that i was more used to the adult service. also, i look at all those kids jumping around, looking like they are really really on fire for christ, and i think to myself.....are they there for a fun experience, or a life changing spiritual one...i am not qualified to answer that, and i hope fervently for their sake that its the latter, not the former, that keeps them coming back to church week after week. what i can say though, is this.....where is my generation??!!! where are all the pple i knew when i was a kid coming to church??!! where have they all disappeared to.....
they have gone.
i guess we are at the time of our lives now with so many distractions, and so many past hurts, that it just becomes so easy to give up the faith, to quit the race.....to abandon your heritage and leave the prophisies (sic?) of our lives unfufilled. i know many who have gone through the caudron of the army, and left it with their faith in tatters. i know pple of my age, christians, who are already married with kids...all because of a lapse of judgement and self control. so many pple, those who were so enthusiastic about the faith when they were young...have turned out to be the ones that have backslided in one way or another. thats where my generation has gone, and tts why i hardly know this whole new batch of kids in the youth service.
it is my fervent prayer then, that i will never walk down this road...that even though i am by no means a model christian, or even a good one at that...i need that childlike faith to keep trusting God in everything i do....and lean not on my own understanding.
because the way i see it....if i lose God, im gonna lose myself as well...and i dont think i have what it takes to survive that.
sorry for the rather depressing post, but i had to get it off my chest. haiz.
oh well, i do believe the big move is all for the best, for the Church and for the furtherance of His Kingdom. may FCBC and her members continue to shine on for Jesus, in all circumstances.
Joshua
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I know how u feel when u go to church and everyone is shouting with their hands raised and speaking in tongues. Gets some getting used to. I still feel irked by it even now. thats why i go for the Traditional service. Nothing wrong with being serious and solemn. Just be sincere.
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