its that emo thing again
having just finished 6 gruelling papers, and having earned a well deserved rest, i now find myself looking forward to just one thing.
more tests in 5 weeks time!!! hurray!! die.
actually i am actively trying to prevent myself from doing any work. in a conversation with a friend a few daes ago, i mentioned that my life has devolved into nothing but my studies, and i have nothing....nothing!! to look forward to. even my beloved computer fails to exite me that much now. woe! woe! >_<
feeling desolate, i chanced upon my old school album circa 2001, and decided to flip through it. to my surprise, i found an article i wrote as a j1 inside it, and on a whim, i decided to publish it in todays entry, to be captured for posterity. thank you.
*rewind back 5 years. an eternity...*
"being a second intake student has been both a trying and unique experience. having had the opportunity to spend 3 mths in what some would consider to be a 'greener' jc, i am still getting snide remarks of how 'lagi bodoh' ive been to throw away such an opportunity. yet there is little cause for regret. i regard ACS as the institution that has nurtured and educated me, and the holistic approach it takes to teach its students is an experience to be found no where else, speaking volumes about its lifelong committment to 'touch and change lives'. at ACJC, having been given the privilege both to be a counsellor as well as a member of the 'scone' club i have indeed enriched my school life, and i sincerely believe that the next 2 yrs here will be a rewarding one.
exactly what is an ACSian? i had the opportunity to pose this qn to one of my seniors some time back, and the answer i got was as simple and direct as it was true.
"No Regrets"
we do what we want, we go where we want to, answerable only to ourselves and God. we live life to the fullest, living, laughing, making friends, not giving 2 hoots about people who may not like us. we have a natural charisma and a 'never say die' attitude that overcomes all obstacles, and a perennial childishness that fuels in us a curiosity to try all things new, and excel in all things done. ACSians be proud of your heritage, and strive to blaze our own legacy for those who follow our footsteps. remember....carpe diem....NO REGRETS!"
* fast forward to today*
wah lao. as i read that, i realized that out of 800 j1's in that year, only me and 3 others got a chance to pen an article in the 'junior pages' section.
but tts not the point. the point is that somewhere between graduation and eternal sufferance (ie then and now) i was changed. not fundamentally, for i still live my life with very few regrets, but changed in the sense that slightly more youthful idealism has been replaced by jaded jauntiness (if u can understand the term)
there is a saying that when a man is young he dreams of changing the world. when he grows older and realizes the world cannot be changed, he wished to change his family. when his family refuses to change, and as he lay on his deathbed, he realized that if only he had changed himself first, then he could have changed his family, and perhaps even done more than that.
it is times like these that i remniscence about the heritage of my past. of what i have gone through, to become what i am now. i think about my school. my friends. my family. my life. my ups and downs. my success and failures. my singlehood.(!!!!!) my future. my God.
if i could have one wish, it wouldnt be for money, or world peace or all that jazz.
it would be to live a life of meaning. that must be one of the hardest things to do, ever.
i apologize for this rambling post. it doesnt make much sense. it was never intended to.
this being my blog, i find it carthartic to pen my thoughts out now and then. i leave you with a quote which inspired my school motto.
"the past we inherit, the present we create, but for those who continue to hope and pray,the best is yet to be!"
josh (:
more tests in 5 weeks time!!! hurray!! die.
actually i am actively trying to prevent myself from doing any work. in a conversation with a friend a few daes ago, i mentioned that my life has devolved into nothing but my studies, and i have nothing....nothing!! to look forward to. even my beloved computer fails to exite me that much now. woe! woe! >_<
feeling desolate, i chanced upon my old school album circa 2001, and decided to flip through it. to my surprise, i found an article i wrote as a j1 inside it, and on a whim, i decided to publish it in todays entry, to be captured for posterity. thank you.
*rewind back 5 years. an eternity...*
"being a second intake student has been both a trying and unique experience. having had the opportunity to spend 3 mths in what some would consider to be a 'greener' jc, i am still getting snide remarks of how 'lagi bodoh' ive been to throw away such an opportunity. yet there is little cause for regret. i regard ACS as the institution that has nurtured and educated me, and the holistic approach it takes to teach its students is an experience to be found no where else, speaking volumes about its lifelong committment to 'touch and change lives'. at ACJC, having been given the privilege both to be a counsellor as well as a member of the 'scone' club i have indeed enriched my school life, and i sincerely believe that the next 2 yrs here will be a rewarding one.
exactly what is an ACSian? i had the opportunity to pose this qn to one of my seniors some time back, and the answer i got was as simple and direct as it was true.
"No Regrets"
we do what we want, we go where we want to, answerable only to ourselves and God. we live life to the fullest, living, laughing, making friends, not giving 2 hoots about people who may not like us. we have a natural charisma and a 'never say die' attitude that overcomes all obstacles, and a perennial childishness that fuels in us a curiosity to try all things new, and excel in all things done. ACSians be proud of your heritage, and strive to blaze our own legacy for those who follow our footsteps. remember....carpe diem....NO REGRETS!"
* fast forward to today*
wah lao. as i read that, i realized that out of 800 j1's in that year, only me and 3 others got a chance to pen an article in the 'junior pages' section.
but tts not the point. the point is that somewhere between graduation and eternal sufferance (ie then and now) i was changed. not fundamentally, for i still live my life with very few regrets, but changed in the sense that slightly more youthful idealism has been replaced by jaded jauntiness (if u can understand the term)
there is a saying that when a man is young he dreams of changing the world. when he grows older and realizes the world cannot be changed, he wished to change his family. when his family refuses to change, and as he lay on his deathbed, he realized that if only he had changed himself first, then he could have changed his family, and perhaps even done more than that.
it is times like these that i remniscence about the heritage of my past. of what i have gone through, to become what i am now. i think about my school. my friends. my family. my life. my ups and downs. my success and failures. my singlehood.(!!!!!) my future. my God.
if i could have one wish, it wouldnt be for money, or world peace or all that jazz.
it would be to live a life of meaning. that must be one of the hardest things to do, ever.
i apologize for this rambling post. it doesnt make much sense. it was never intended to.
this being my blog, i find it carthartic to pen my thoughts out now and then. i leave you with a quote which inspired my school motto.
"the past we inherit, the present we create, but for those who continue to hope and pray,the best is yet to be!"
josh (:
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